Peter Houghton is grateful for his artificial heart. After all, it has saved his life.
He's just a little wistful about emotions.
He wishes he could feel them like he used to.
Houghton is the first permanent lifetime recipient of a Jarvik 2000 left ventricular assist device. Seven years ago, it took over for the heart he was born with. Since then, it has unquestionably improved his physical well-being. He has walked long distances, traveled internationally and kept a daunting work schedule.
At the same time, he reports, he's become more "coldhearted" -- "less sympathetic in some ways." He just doesn't feel like he can connect with those close to him. He wishes he could bond with his twin grandsons, for example. "They're 8, and I don't want to be bothered to have a reasonable relationship with them and I don't know why," he says.
He can only feel enough to regret that he doesn't feel enough.
Could the poets have been right all these millennia? Could emotions be matters of the heart?
“This is slavery, not to speak one's thought.” ― Euripides, The Phoenician Women
Monday, August 13, 2007
Cold-Hearted Survivior
For some reason, article by Joel Garreau in yesterday's Washington Post caught my eye: